1:00PM

I can’t stand to watch Trump on television anymore. I can’t stand to read his tweets. I can’t stand to see how he communicates with the world.

He seems to take a “you’re with me or against me” approach to life and it infuriates me. I see him attack people’s credibility every single day by adding nicknames to them, typically with a negative adjective, that will belittle or discredit them. He will take someone’s name and add an adjective in front of it, like Lyin Ted or Crooked Hilary or Little Marco. It is a branding technique to diminish the person after the adjective. He does this so often I’m surprised it hasn’t been branded as a Trump strategy.

If you can’t tell, I feel very angry when I think about this behavior. Why? Because it hurts people that I care about. It hurts the discourse in this country. It says that if someone doesn’t agree with him, then they are either small and weak and therefore can’t do anything or powerful but malicious and evil and therefore ruining your life.

I just don’t buy into it. I don’t believe that 99% of the world is small and weak or powerful and evil and he’s not. That 99% of the world is lying to me and he’s not. That 99% of the world wants to destroy my life and he doesn’t. I just don’t buy it.

I worry because a lot of the people that I love believe deeply in a lot of what he says. They believe that the mainstream media is lying and hiding and trying to destroy their lives. They believe that Obama, the Clintons, and the “Globalists” are trying to destroy their lives. They believe that many people are trying to destroy their lives.

And it hurts to see them like this. I’m not saying that there aren’t people that do things to hurt us, that do things that help them more than help us, I just don’t think it’s out of an evil intent.

Even Trump, I don’t think Trump is evil. I don’t think Trump is small or weak. I think Trump may believe deep down that he’s small or weak, but I don’t think he is. I think he just learned certain behaviors growing up to cope with life. Maybe he was bullied as a kid. Maybe he was ignored by his parents. Maybe he always felt like the outcast, having money but not enough money, or being good looking but not good looking enough.

We all feel insecure about different things and if you’ve read any of the stuff I’ve written before, you know I have some as well. I guess I just don’t like it when the president seems to be showering us with his insecurities.

I pause and think what do I actually want for him. I want him to be happy. I want him to feel loved. I want him to find the peace of heart that he deserves. I don’t think he will find it while in the White House, I don’t think he’ll find it while being in politics.

I do not want Donald Trump to be the President of the United States because I care about me, my country, and also him.

1:10PM


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