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Hello, everyone welcome to another dailyjim it is slightly after July 5, 2022. And today I wanted to talk about yesterday, july 4th 2022 how it was a heavy day for me. I can't speak to everyone's experience. I think everyone's got different experiences. Same things happen in the world and we feel differently. We notice different things, We pay attention to different things. Things remind us of different things. Yesterday was intense for me. Um, okay, if many people aren't aware there was a shooting in highland park, which is a suburb, kind of a suburb north of Chicago.
And I can't even, I don't even know how many people died this time. There's a part of me that doesn't even want to look at the numbers anymore. Um, quite a few people died. Quite a few people got shot and injured at a parade where people were celebrating this country.
And.
I don't know how it's not terrorism because maybe there's not a united group that's doing it, that we don't call it terrorism. I don't know with terrorism maybe pointing more towards trying to achieve specific political aims through violence and terrorizing people. So I don't know if it falls into the category of political aims that a lot of these individual people are doing. I do wonder how much communal support they have on the internet and whether it's not just kind of personal aims. But anyways, so that hit me kind of hard. I think just over the last couple of years looking at the US and seeing how much.
Anger and frustration and distance that we're starting to have or that we may be having between groups that, that worries me and saddens me.
Um, and I think I'd be remiss if I I just said that I was feeling sad yesterday because of what's happening politically or culturally in the US. A lot of it has to do with me as well. Just reflecting on the last couple of years and looking at the state of where I am. I went to a fireworks show that I've kind of gone to since I was a kid. So to be back home going out to the fireworks show, I think it was, yeah, they didn't have it for the last two years because of Covid. And so just walking around and seeing the people there and seeing how I'm getting older and they're getting younger, you know, and just, I guess reminiscing on that and comparing where I am in life, you know, seeing people that have married with kids and walking around and me going, okay, how much money do I have to? Uh, can I afford that little thing over there where there are people out here affording families and homes and things like this. So really just reflecting on work and life. And it hit me pretty hard, but I'm grateful. You know, I think sometimes I appreciate pausing and feeling really sad and even crying and just.
Recognizing that sometimes it hurts to lose things that we care about. And I think part of that was the self image that I've had lately, you know, and what I thought I would be growing up when I was a kid. And I think another part of it is just what I thought the country would be as I was growing up as a kid, so having that goal post to go back to a very, very familiar place and, do the comparison and contrast.
So yeah, I think it's okay to cry. I think it's okay to feel sad. I think it's okay to.
Mourn the loss of things that we held dear. Remember taking a workshop, leadership training workshop by this guy George cole razor.
And there was one exercise in there where this woman was saying goodbye to her husband who was, going through cancer and so he went she went up to the one you know, she went up to the guy that was pretending to be the husband and would say goodbye and she didn't want to say goodbye and he says no you're gonna say goodbye. And then you're gonna go back to these three people who are playing your friends and they're going to console you. And so eventually she finally said goodbye and then she went back to the friends and they consoled her and she was crying and heartbroken. And then the facilitator said okay Now imagine by some stroke of luck by some mad, you know miracle you have 60 seconds to see your husband again, what would you do? And she's still hanging out with the friends. He says okay 45 seconds and she runs over there to say hi and give him a big hug and then he says okay, time's up, you have to go back to your friends and say goodbye again. She's saying, I don't want to say goodbye, say goodbye again, says goodbye and goes back to her friends and then he says okay, another stroke of luck, you have an opportunity to speak to your husband again, what would you do? She goes over and gives him a huge hug, hello, how are you, etcetera and then has to say goodbye again and maybe this went on one more time. But the main lesson I learned from it was that sometimes we're so afraid to say goodbye that we never really say hello.
And for me yesterday part of it was just saying goodbye to, maybe certain ideals that I had as a kid or certain myths or even just kind of goodbye two specific moments specific times in our lives and times of my life. And so anyways just wanted to talk about that a little bit. Just the importance of not only celebrating but also grieving. And I think tears and and grieving can really, allow us to open up to move to the next step and sometimes the next step is just coming back to the same thing just being open to it um that it may leave and it may change over time. So seven minutes man speaking of saying goodbye morning things, maybe I'm mourning the five minute time than I said for myself, but maybe I'll get better over time alright, have a good night, everyone.
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